I do these study's. I do these fucking study's. All of these people trying to understand the kids that slash at their wrists to escape the pain. People trying to understand suicide. People dissecting my head, looking for the answer thats going to save someone who has the money's kid.

I can't tell you, i can't explain for you what it is to want to die.
I can't make you see that I'm not thinking about myself. I'm not thinking about anyone. I just want the end to be here.
and its not worth going on
and its not worth getting up again
and its not worth having people tear you down just because they can
having them leave
having them come back and expecting to see you there waiting for them

I'm not trying to do anyone else a favor. But I'm also not trying to hurt you.
I'm just trying to fade into the background.

you'll forget me in a year anyway, thats the way death works. People move on. You'll move on.
- posted by Catherine @ 12/21/2005 09:24:00 PM (0) comments