I keep having this thought bloom in my mind;

'I'm going to kill myself'

I figure as long as I have the energy to stamp it out something is still making it worth it.
- posted by Catherine @ 1/30/2006 09:32:00 PM (0) comments

 
the only reason that i don't hang myself from the hook in my ceiling is that I'm afraid of the mess it would make.
- posted by Catherine @ 1/30/2006 09:32:00 PM (0) comments

 
I'm left here thinking; if I was to die today, if my heart were to explode in my chest, what would be left unsaid. What would I regret to have left leaving hanging in the air above our heads?

I can think of a million conversations that I would thirst for in hell, I know I'm going there.

But to see anyone there, to feel the true sting of regret as their soul passes by mine, their thoughts and emotions galvanized as to what they feel about me.

In my vision of hell all things are solid. There is nothing left to change. People feel what they felt in life only they it's stronger than ever. They hated you in life but detest even the ground you walk on in death.

Yes, this means that this vision includes an afterlife. A misty gray world, with little dead gray trees.

*shrugs*
what’s my point?

miscommunication and apathy. The two things I would change about this world.
- posted by Catherine @ 1/04/2006 12:16:00 AM (0) comments