Fear consumes you, only trust can save you
I want to say how sorry I am. For being so awkward and awful the last few days and in truth I do not know when this is going to get better. With this anniversary I now wait for the next, after that it may be over.

I don't know how to react to you telling me how great I am. I'm really not used to it and I...don't know how to think, how to live when there are people that actually care about me.

I can't type right now, I'm in turmoil. I have a journal entry that I feel either I should post or have you read...ask me about it if you can.

For right now I have letters to read and reminisce with.
- posted by Catherine @ 5/27/2004 10:16:00 AM