I watched you change
Note; don't let people take you're life and fuck it up. Don't let them take your soul examine it and throw it away. Don't let them touch you. Don't let them into your past. Don't give them a chance to misunderstand you. Don't pick the wrong person to trust. But also do not trust that the right ones will understnad your pleas. Because they won't and then you're forced to turn to the wrong people. When that happens everything goes to hell. But in that event please remember not to put to much weight on their words, they're sure to say the wrong ones. Those wrong words with the power you have given them, they can break you. Again. As always.

I think I used to be happy. Denial is the best. You don't have to deal with anything, not really...Even better though is total repression. It doesn't even cross your mind. So nice. I don't understand why my mind feels I must deal with this right now. Does it think I have the tools? Or maybe the people capable of helping me?

In truth, I don't want them to help me. People always get hurt around me. I hurt them. My memeories hurt them. My actions hurt them. As theirs do me.

Triggers are some of the worst things out there. Dangerous really. Promises get broken that way. My triggers? (an unasked question, congrats cathy you scitzo) -yelling, -some music, -memories.

as I think of it...this is me handing you my soul on a silver platter. You could do anything with this...so what will you do? break me. please.

MH:I will not take anything from you. Not if I can help it. But it is up to you what you want to give and that I will try to accept.
- posted by Catherine @ 5/09/2004 10:43:00 PM