accidents
no this has nothing to do with the alexiss on fire song...

first I was cutting labels off of jones bottle and sliced my hand open, the only thing that stopped the blade was the bone, how unfortunate, it's alright now though I guess. Painful to type though
then I'm getting somthing out of the cupboard and I slice my hand open twice...oo red, so good

And now I wish I was having an accident
That mood where it feels like waves of pain are breaking across my back and it takes all my will not to fall down on to the floor curl up into the fetal position and cry.
I couldn't tell you why i feel this way...there is no trigger or thought process that drove me into feeling this.

But the end result, the reason that this on this blog and no where else, the reason that I needed to do this here is that, yes I do have such an urge within me to cut that I don't know what to do with my self. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the night without doing just that. I don't know how much of my 'best' I have left...
- posted by Catherine @ 12/31/2004 07:12:00 PM