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When ever is comes to talking about why I always feel like shit. All these thoughts just fly across my mind and I feel like shit. I don't know what to do about it and what I used to do isn't going to get me anywere. I mean I'll feel better. God I would feel so much better. But, really, I should do something else. So far I've just figured that sitting here/there feeling like shit is a step in the right direction. But really it just makes me feel like dieing and I remember why I started in the first place. I need an alternative.
And I know that people will tell me that they are the alternative, but really I have to find something inside of me that I can use. I can't have myself running to others all the time looking for what I can't find in myself. I can't rely on them all the time. Because what happens when they die? What happens when they leave? Or take back what they have said? I can't bet with those chances...
So I just hope that I find that something soon.
That would be so nice...
But what do I do in the mean time?
- posted by Catherine @ 1/12/2005 09:31:00 PM