how?
Do I manage to pull shit like this, or rather how does my brain manage to actually convince me of all these strange things? How do I beleive that all of these huge things in my life are all just magnificent lies. I have such a guilt complex, so when that happens I'm all torn up inside from ever telling anyone a lie of that scale. So I have to go through everything that I've written, through all my memories and peice the real story together again. Its sad that everytime I do it turns out to be this really shitty story and that i get all fucked up about that. But at least I haven't lied. I would kill myself if I ever lied like that. I don't think I could ever bring myself to do something like that.
- posted by Catherine @ 7/13/2005 08:28:00 PM